Last night I had my "my children are still so innocent" bubble burst. I was reviewing the history of my computer, which I do ever so often to ensure my bubble does not pop.....when I discovered.....NAKED PICTURES OF GIRLS SERCHES AND VIEWS!!!!!!! I knew it would happen, I did, I talked to myself about it and said when the time came I would gracefully go to said child and explain that exploration into sexuality is normal and if there are any questions please feel free to ask......However, this was NOT my reaction. I hollered up to my 2 oldest children, who were blissfully unaware of what I had seen.....and I hollered!!!! Ugh, I promised myself I would NOT do this, and I did. I promised myself I would be the mother who would take each milestone and explain it with no anger or judgement. Well, I broke my promise. Neither child would admit to it, although I cannot say that I blame them. But then that brought out my anger at simply being lied to....even worse in my mind than looking at nude pics....one of my children is bold faced LYING to me!!!!! I mean I know which it was. I have a daughter who is 10 and a son who is 9.....still, I want an admission. I may be expecting too much, but I have banned computer and internet from both children until one comes clean.
Fast-forward to today. I will now go back to my propmise to myself to sit with my children and explain that this is a normal part of growing up. However the family computer is NEVER to be used for such things. Wish me luck in tonights convrsation.....I will keep updated on that outcome.
I have this itch I need to scratch...I am simply baffled by my discovery, I feel almost naive to it. I was sitting at a friends party recently, when the conversation turned to what meds everyone was on!!! I myself am not on anything but Aleve, the occasional tylenol PM and the nightly cocktail.....I was amazed at how many people are taking pills for everything and anything! I know some people truly need these pills, However....why is it so freely given. I mean it seems to be the instant thing to do...got a headache, heres a pill, feeling down, heres a pill, cramps??? Heres a pill. I get it, but I dont. What happened to taking a walk, clearing your mind, finding a hobby, talking things out???!!! Am I alone in thinking that a pill doesnt fix everything...is it a wonder that so many people are addicted, that there are babies withdrawing from pills after their mothers give birth?? Me??? I write, I take a walk, I work out, I call a friend, I scream a little, I sleep....but pill pop???? I dont want it...the side effects??? No thank you!!! Have you read the side effects?? Alot of these pills arent even taken by the prescribed, they are sold to dealers who turn around and sell them at higher value!!! I mean all the power to making a buck if its available, I dont knock anyone trying to do so, and maybe thats what it is in the end....doctors make money from recurring patients, pharmacists make money from recurring patient, street pharmacists make money from recurring patients.....however how effective can these drugs be for the actual problems???? I'm not mad just amazed....and as I said perhaps naieve to it all.
I am new to blogging.....however I am so excited with so many things running through my head I don't even know where to begin....before I go too far I figure I will introduce myself....kind of. I am choosing to stay anonymous.....my reasoning??? I want people to give me thoughts and opinions on my thoughts and opinions with no holds bar....I may know you, but I don't want agreement because you know me, or hatred because you dont like me. These are simply my thoughts and I want pure conversation and honest responses. I will promise to give the same. I am a single mother.....I work full time...I come from a large family. I am known for my big heart and desire to have everyone get along. I take pride in being the best mother, friend sister, daughter, aunt that I can. I may piss people off with what I have to say, but do not take offense for it is simply my opinion. We are all entitled to one, right or wrong. Feel free to make me understand some of my misunderstandings...I embrace all things. I love to learn new things, so feel free to educate...again, I may not agree but I will respect your opinion!!!
